“Some seasons beg for silence. Others, there are more than enough words to go around.” 

Dearest Reader, 

Some seasons beg for silence. Others, there are more than enough words to go around. Most days, I’m a woman of too many words. Generally, I’m prone to wear your ears out. I’m working on it, I am.

However, this has been a season of quiet reflection. It’s been a time between God and me. I’ve been tearing through journals and my favorite pens like a wildfire.

This story feels redundant, somehow, and I’m hesitant to bring it to you. Again. In this case, I think you’ll understand.

Some seasons beg for silence, while some need to be shared. 

Chronic Disease is full of ups and downs. Whether it’s Chronic Disease or constant pain, you’ll understand. For you, it could be a matter of a chronic life. Either way, this is a place for you.

Living a chronic life is a dance of two steps forward and five or ten backward. When I’m moving forward, I tend to pick up the pace. Ordinarily, when life goes sideways, I throw on more concealer and push through. Not so much today. My pain has become unbearable, and driving through is not the way.

Dearest One, if you are in the midst of a wilderness, I know you understand. Chronic Disease is hard. Chronic pain will wear a girl slam out. Throw in a few life stressors, and well, you get the picture.

I find myself in a season of being worn slam out.

To tell you I am frustrated and disappointed is an understatement. I’ve cried and pleaded and bargained. Finally, I have reconciled myself to even slower routines, more rest, less going and doing.

I’m sorry to tell you, I’ve lived and learned and failed at this many times over the past eight years.

I’m backing up and beginning anew today.

A season of silence that makes more room to hear God. More listening and less talking. Quieter days with more of God and less of me; less of my agenda.

My emotions have run the scale from sorrow to anger and back around again. I’ll wrestle through and find my way. Again. And so will you.

I’ve been captivated by these words:

“Behold, I’m doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” Isaiah 43:19

What we can know is this:

Whatever is on the other side of what springs forth will be better.

It’s okay to sit still today. 

Tomorrow, we begin again with new mercies and fresh strength.

Meanwhile, let’s continue to redefine the wilderness together.

“And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.” 

Colossians 1:17

Let me know how you are by commenting below or sending a private email to tlmashburn@yahoo.com.

Lastly, I am here to encourage you, equip you, and guide you as you redefine your wilderness.

Your Wilderness Guide,

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*Unless otherwise noted, all Scripture quotes are in the English Standard Version from Bible.com

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“There is no space to live well or love well, much less pursue the God who created us to be in fellowship with Him. We close the gap between what we need and what we want with more. Our spinning lives and broken hearts are empty while appearing full. We paste a smile on our face and tell anyone who asks we are okay while inside we are shattering a million different ways.” -Mornings In The Word