Comfort in the wilderness.  

Living with chronic pain was unexpected, uninvited, and not exactly where I saw myself in this season. If I’m honest, I never expected it all. 

Dearest Reader,

Coming here today has been a struggle. If we were sitting in my neurologist’s office today holding the offensive clipboard with its pain chart, I would be crying in my coffee about now.

There is not a number, or anywhere on that chart, I can relate to today. I’m betting you know this feeling: three steps forward, ten and a half back. We move forward slowly, bent, and rubbing our aches and pains; attempting to erase them somehow.

But this pain of Chronic Life has its way with us.

Living with chronic pain was unexpected, uninvited, and not exactly where I saw myself in this season. If I’m honest, I never expected it all. 

We seek comfort in the wilderness, where there is no relief.

To not seek comfort is to give up, and I am not there yet. Beyond that, I continue to choose the way of presence rather than pain management. (my body reacts violently to medications, even those meant to help) Do not misunderstand; my choice is mine and not intended for anyone else. And know that I understand yours. 

We seek the Comforter and His Words when our pain overwhelms.

Every day ordinary things become extraordinary, bringing beauty in the wilderness.

  • Mr. and Mrs. House Wren dancing on the fence. He, dropping food in her mouth for the little ones in the nest.
  • Unexpected blooms.
  • My Sweet Man as he converses with our flowers, coaxing their blooms.
  • Lola, as she dozes at my feet.

The heat in my bones fades with each treasure.

I seek comfort in the wilderness when I sit in the pre-dawn darkness with my Bible, journal, and pen open on my lap.

“Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light on my path.” Psalm 119:105 (ESV)

A lamp, commentaries tell us is as a candle, lighting one step at a time — the Light on our path, the radiance of God.

I can do this suffering one step at a time, to go beyond we must have the radiance of God.

In her book, Suffering Is Never For Nothing, Elisabeth Elliot says this: 

“If we learn to know God in the midst of our pain, we come to know Him as one who is not a Hight Priest that cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities. He is one who has been over every inch of the road.”

Today, I choose to cling to the One who has been over every inch of this road of pain and suffering.

I am choosing to trust Almighty God, who has gone before me and behind me. My Friend, I am praying that you will do the same.

You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me.” Psalm 139:5 (ESV)

“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, ‘My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.’” Psalm 91:1-2 (ESV)

Trust. Trust is the WAY. 

I am here to encourage you, equip you, and guide you as you redefine your wilderness. You can comment below or send a private email to tlmashburn@yahoo.com.

Your Wilderness Guide,

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