We waffle between staying in the boat or jumping overboard. Choosing to step out of the boat with Jesus, I sink.
I shared this with you in our last installment:
“I chose the boat with Jesus in it. I fell into His embrace in the wilderness. I needed calm in the storm.”
That is where I am today, in the boat with Jesus. Walking, sometimes dancing, occasionally being carried through the wilderness.
If you have not chosen Jesus, my heart longs to share a time when I jumped out of the boat. Angry with God, I turned away from Him. I was willing to lose it all and sink in a life without Jesus. I chose to descend into a pit of hell.
I chose to descend into a pit of hell.
I cannot swim!
We did not live near water, nor was there a public pool in my growing up years. In my adult years, I took swimming lessons, on the chance I may need to jump in and save my children. I failed all attempts at learning to swim. I defy all logic and sink; the swimming instructor gently advised me to quit trying. -smile- I did.
Jumping out of my metaphorical spiritual boat did not go any better. It was ugly and came close to costing me everything.
Without Jesus, we will sink. There are no protective boundaries in place. No rock to stand on when the swells wash over you, tugging you under water. There is no breath in your lungs, no life in your days. There is no rest.
When treading the murky waters robbed me of strength, I went to the bottom. I reveled in my anger at God. Floundered in self-pity.
Drowning, I came to the end of myself, clawing my way out, worried it was too late.
Precious One, it is never too late to turn back. Never.
Hebrews 13:6b (CSB) says, ” I will never leave you or abandon you.”
Did you hear that? He will never leave you or abandon you. He will not give up on you. If you have chosen to jump out of the boat, though you may sink, He is there waiting. He will go to the depths of Sheol to save you.
“Where can I go to escape your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I make my bed in Sheol, you are there.” Psalms 139:7-8 (CSB)
If you are choosing rescue, choosing life, at this moment surrender all that you are to a loving, faithful God who will not leave you nor abandon you.
“For we know, brothers and sisters loved by God, that HE has chosen YOU.” 1 Thessalonians 1:4 (CSB) (Emphasis mine)
Dearest Reader, He has chosen you, holy and beloved. You are seen and known. You are pursued even to the depths of Hell.
He will rescue you.
You are loved.
Gifts of Grace
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I’m blessed to serve you in this place, to share with you the Gifts of Grace as I journey through the wilderness. I picture you across the table, hands wrapped tightly around your cup, sharing life, and laughter, and tears. As I share with you, my daily struggles, I long to hear what yours may be. You can do that by commenting below or reaching out to me here.