“I want some peace and quiet. I want a walk in the country, I want a cabin in the woods. I’m desperate for a change from rage and stormy weather.”

Psalm 55: 7 The Message 

Welcome! I’m so glad you are joining me today! Sign up here and have new blog posts delivered directly to your inbox and stay in touch with more Gifts of Grace as we journey through the wilderness. 

Recently I was asked to define the wilderness, particularly my wilderness.

My wilderness is daily living with chronic illness, specifically P.O.T.S., and with it a myriad of layers heaped one on top of another.

Stripping self reliance takes us to the uncomfortable place of releasing control. Releasing control places us in the wilderness. An unfamiliar place without to do lists, filters, demands, the ever spinning hamster wheel, the tugs of a life out of control.

Placing our feet, our heart, perhaps our very lives, where ground cannot be seen. A place of trust. Of faith.

The wilderness can be many things. The wayward child, a failing marriage, addiction, loss of home, security, and so much more.

The reality is we are not in control. We are not meant to be in control.

Control is merely an illusion. An illusion, when chased will lead you into the wilderness.

When self reliance is stripped away, we find our truest selves gazing into the face of our Creator. Dare I remind you, we are created in His very image?

We take the hand beckoning us, leading us to a place where we are not alone.

The Lord replied, “I will personally go with you, Moses, and I will give you rest-everything will be fine for you.” Exodus 33:14 (NLT)

When we step out into the wilderness and we are set free. Set. Free. We escape the confinement of control. The confinement of all that holds us hostage in this life, robbing us of joy and peace.

There is freedom in the wilderness. I can tell you this because, I know.

I know, because, if not , would we be desperately needing a change from rage and stormy weather?

If we so badly dream of that cabin in the woods, what are we really pining for? Release. Freedom. Quiet in the busyness of life. Peace in our worries. Hope in the hopelessness.

Stripping of self reliance, where we are worn thin. Thin to the point of breaking. Healing comes through the breaking.

Broken, we are put together more beautiful in The Refiner’s hands.

Broken we find our truest selves.

“Where He leads us to go there’s a red sea road.

When we can’t see the way He will part the waves.

And we’ll never walk alone down a red sea road.” 

Ellie Holcomb from Red Sea Road 

What is your wilderness today? Is it the wayward child? The failing marriage. Overwhelming financial burdens? Chronic illness? Grief? Addiction? Control?

I would love to take your beautiful heart into my hands and tell you, you are not alone. He will never leave you nor abandon you.

For God has said, “I will never fail you. I will never abandon you.” Hebrews 13:5b (NLT)

Together, hand in hand. I would love to hear your journey in the wilderness. You can do that by commenting below or contacting me directly.

Since its release, I have wrapped myself in the words of Ellie Holcomb’s new song Red Sea Road. You can find it here:

Gifts of Grace