RECENTLY A FRIEND  ASKED ME TO SPEAK AT A MOTHER  DAUGHTER BANQUET AT HER CHURCH. I WAS HUMBLED AND HONORED TO DO SO.

I WAS EXCITED TO SHARE MY STORY, A JOURNEY WHERE I HAVE BEEN BLESSED TO SEE GOD’S FAITHFULNESS ALL OVER MY LIFE, UNTIL I OPENED UP MY LAPTOP,  SAW THE BLANK PAGE AND THE CURSER BLINKING. I STARTED TO SWEAT. I KNEW THE MESSAGE I WANTED TO SHARE BUT THE WORDS JUST WOULDN’T COME. THING IS, WHEN SOMEONE ASKS ME MY STORY, THE WORDS FLOW OUT OF MY MOUTH WITH PASSION AND EXUBERANCE AND I CAN GO ON AND ON AND ON AND ON.

I’M NOT SURE IF IT WAS THE INTIMIDATION OF THE BLANK PAGE OR MORE, THAT LIKE MOST THINGS IN MY LIFE, SOMETHING I WAS TRYING TO MANAGE AND CONTROL, AN AREA WHERE I ESPECIALLY STRUGGLE.

I CALLED UP A VERY DEAR PERSON TO ME AND SHARED MY DELIMA WITH HER. KNOWING I JOURNAL, SHE SUGGESTED I GO BACK TO MY JOURNALS AND START THERE. I WALKED AWAY FROM THE COMPUTER AND WENT TO PULL THEM OUT.

I SPREAD THE JOURNALS OUT BEFORE ME AND SLOWLY BEGAN TO TURN THE PAGES. I SAW WORDS AND TEAR STAINS AND COFFEE STAINS.  AND THROUGH ALL THE WORDS AND STAINS, WHAT I SAW WAS A GOD WHO WAS ACTIVE AND ALIVE AND FAITHFULLY WEAVING THROUGH THE STORY OF MY LIFE. I SAW CLEARLY WHERE HE HAD REASSURED ME, CALMED MY ANXIETIES, HELD MY HAND AND HELD ME UP,  TIME AND TIME AGAIN.

ANN VOSKAMP IN HER BOOK ONE THOUSAND GIFTS, SAID “GOD REVEALS HIMSELF IN REARVIEW MIRRORS”. I SPENT THE AFTERNOON READING THROUGH MY JOURNALS AND I HAD MY REARVIEW MIRROR EXPEREINCE RIGHT THERE BEFORE ME IN THOSE PAGES.

HEBREWS 11:27 SAYS “IT WAS BY FAITH THAT MOSES LEFT THE LAND OF EGYPT, NOT FEARING THE KING’S ANGER. HE KEPT RIGHT ON GOING BECAUSE HE KEPT HIS EYES ON THE ONE WHO IS INVISIBLE.” NLT

FIX YOUR EYES ON THE ONE WHO IS INVISIBLE, WHO PROMISES TO HOLD YOUR HAND AND HOLD YOU UP. A GOD WHO PROMISES NOT TO HARM YOU BUT TO PROSPER YOU. A GOD WHO WILL ONE DAY WIPE  YOUR TEARS AND MINE AWAY!

HE IS WEAVING HIS THREAD OF LIFE THROUGH YOUR STORY AS WELL AS MINE.

FILLED WITH GRACE

TAMMY MASHBURN